here's some more pics. i don't understand the stupid order which "my script" numbered/ordered them. heck..whatever..:)
july pics
aug pics
giants game pics
arrgh..i stepped on bubble gum today while riding the muni. it was a crowded bus, so i sat in the back row, which was empty except for the skektchy guy at the far left seat. i was also reading the Word on my palm pilot, so i didn't really scope out the area before planting myself down. after a minute or two, i attempted to resituate myself, and bam!..bubble gum!
man, i can't even remember the last time i had bubble stuck on my shoe. but it's down right nasty and inconvenient. amongst these professionals going downtown, i was trying to maintain my coolness, but at the same time, shuffled my feet to remove the wad of stickyness. yeah, i'm sure i look like a buffoon. plus, i'm sure i look awkward, somewhat limping but not really when i got off the bus. it felt as if i was walking with one shoe and one plunger! i'm telling you, i got the suction cup action going this morning.
removing the gum is going to be a pain. unlike other common shoe adherents, gum doesn't dissolve in water. you have to pry it out. man, i feel like chucking the shoe out the window. but two problems: i don't have a window and i need something to walk home on something...hmm..unless i steal..i mean, borrow the plunger from the men's room! what's the diff?!
man....gum on the shoe is worst than ??? :) on the shoe. i hate greasy, but i loathe sticky.
word? word to your mother? feel me bro? check me cous? (made that one up..haha)
late,
gear
meaning or purpose of life is lost when a sense of reality is lost. it is when life becomes relative, that nothing seems foundational or certain. life is whatever we make it out to be. you entertain, normalize, and even elevate all theories and postulates to truths. absoluteness is lost, conviction is removed. in it's place, relatively and blind acceptance. instead of fully embracing the design of humanity - to worship the creator - we fully embrace the fallness of humanity?.all it's theories, philosophies, and detached religions that somewhat make sense; they connect with us, yet are in disharmony each other. we become pluralistic, believing in universality and validity of all religions. yet how can Christianity, islam, buddism, etc. say the same thing? at the core, they are different. acceptance doesn't necessarily make it true. it's so human (fallen) of us to say everybody is right, leading ultimately to everything relative, and at the end, nothing real.
it's not to dismiss our humanity, the feelings and knowledge we hold, but it is to defer to something more real than ourselves. the buck must not stop with us. it must go onto something that is more real than our thinking, our philosophizing, or reasoning - the gods/"religions" we create. yes, we must recognize ourselves, that i am gary, jon, jill, sandra...i have hands that move...i live in sf, ny, chicago, la...,but we shouldn't buy into ourselves too much, especially concerning that which explains our existence, and the essence of life. how can the finite understand the infinite, the created the creator? the reality/religions/whatever we erect will demolish when challenged by the absoluteness of life. then we will be thrown into disarray. what was seemingly real will become shown to be false. our lives will be declared a lie. we rooted our reality in the finitelity of the human mind. it was relatively real - in our head. we will become lost. nothing seems real anymore. as a result, everything loses meaning. things become a fuzz..fuzz..
no, we need to consciously defer to something greater. we not only need to defer, but we also need to hold on. we need dogmas, those that we subscribed to when we placed our faith in God, faith in the person Christ, faith in a father daughter/son relationship, faith in unconditional love, faith in His deliverance, faith in His coming kingdom...it is when something speculative becomes certain. in our minds, considered truths become truths - our foundation. moreover, these truths are more than objective, they are highly subjective - they are personal. Man, that's powerful, when truths become personal and intimate. that is the way of God, that is the reality of Christ, and that is why we live.
oh yes, God we declare you as our reality. so when life becomes confusing, life becomes rather relative and uncertain...we somehow am reoriented by holding on to you Lord, that You are our reality. in doing so, our life will never lose meaning. heck..when we are going through problem/trial, why does it comfort us to know You created all things?... the vast oceans, the boundless skies, and the blazing stars?it's not directly relevant, but it is b/c life is about something greater than us. at the point of exhaustion/surrender, is it not most pity to surrender to life as just that, nothing more?...oh but thank goodness we know life is not just this, it's about something more...and yes, is it not truly blessed to surrender to life as more than this?...does that not give the soul a hope, a cause, a meaning? yeah, that my meaning is derived from you, not me. and thus, i will press on with that as my base, my reference..my hope..my hope..
k..i have more to say, but it's way too long already..sorry!..still processing though...
gear
following the footsteps of greg wong, i'm going to begin posting links to pics. rather than use my server, i'm going to defer to the faster shutterfly.
but yeah, ken and kay's wedding was wonderful. it was great to see my cous finally tie the knot. i have more to write about weddings in general later...but for now, the pics will do...
gear